The Wave in the Mind, by Elleth

[ladyelleth.livejournal.com]

B2MeM Challenge:
N38: Colours: Sea Green
I27: Book Titles: The Wave in the Mind
Format: Drabble
Genre: Character Study
Rating: Teens
Warnings: Suicidal ideation, implied character death
Characters: Tar-Míriel
Pairings: N/A
Summary: The wave is dark, not sea blue.


The wave is dark, not sea green, tearing dirt, dust and lives across the whole of Númenor. From her high place, through the fumes, Tar-Míriel can see it coming for her, and in her mind it takes the form of shining hope. End this, all this, and end me too.

It is her body that betrays her, only, clawing and climbing the steep slope of the Mountain's side. So even she has fallen under shadow of the fear of death, not caring that it spells deliverance, for the wave rushes at her like a predator, heaven-sent though it may be.

Comments

[allie-meril.livejournal.com]

Oh, creepy, Elleth. There's this sense of claustrophobia to this, like my body feels the water's gonna come after me soon. *shivers*

[ladyelleth.livejournal.com]

Creepy is a good thing. At least for this, so thank you! :)

[huinare.livejournal.com]

Well-written! I suspect it's quite realistic, too, that a person spiritually/intellectually welcoming death would still instinctively seek to physically flee it.

[ladyelleth.livejournal.com]

Yes, I quite agree, regardless of the beliefs Míriel must have been exposed to during Ar-Pharazôn's reign. The early Númenoreans willingly laying down their lives always seemed hard to swallow to me.

[engarian.livejournal.com]

Death, even death strongly desired, can still be feared when faced straight on. Beautifully rendered.

- Erulisse (one L)

[ladyelleth.livejournal.com]

Not that, at that point, she would have had much choice either way. Thank you.

[shadowbrides.livejournal.com]

Powerful. The way you describe the wave really works, and poor Míriel. Whatever her people ( or at least her family) believed, no one really wants to die - at least some part of us doesn't.

[ladyelleth.livejournal.com]

Thank you, and what you said about not wanting to die probably can't be phrased any better.